Watch and learn :’(

Valentine’s day went by just like that.. Me n old cal didn’t celebrate, cus I was on evening shift, duh. But he did come and fetch me home from work.. Me n him, we don’t need frivolous presents and fancy celebrations to celebrate love in exorbitantly priced restaurants.. It’s old but I must say, it is valentine’s day everyday. Haha.

Some nasty things did happen between me and another person, vile words were exchanged. when I was trying to regain my composure I just thought about Caleb.. how I lucky i am to have someone who would never ever say such filthy words to me and how he would always be on my side, be my pillar of support. Just like that I felt better already. the small/irritating stuff just becomes microscopic when you know at least someone has your back, no matter what happens .

Sorry for mushy post. Good night. :)

I know we will be fine just like nothing happened n we will forget abt tonight .. But it really frightens me to know that there is a side of u that is… Like this.. U force me to a corner n it makes me want to do terrible things to myself.

For a few weeks now I’ve been feeling so alive, so exhuberant about being right here right now. Most of all I feel so young and erhem- beautiful-cough cough.. is this the effect of caleb’s sweet lies .?

Youth is beautiful isn’t it. Haha.

Hey school’s out. :D

Thesis was finally submitted 2 days ago, with my tired but high-spirited classmates who have been looking forward to this day since.. 2 semesters ago? 

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Thats us printing and binding the thesis, my favorite part! 

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Printing the thesis, all 20,000+ words and 100+ pages of it meant that I did not have to receive any more comments and accept any more of the trackchanges.

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What a nightmare the whole writing process was. 

After the previous submission of the CSR, I told myself that this time for the thesis, I would quit being a procrastinator and have drafts ready, edited, re-edited, re-re-edited by my supervisors and myself, at least 1 week before the dateline.

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I started to write the first two chapters of the thesis within the week of submission of CSR.

And I boldly emailed both my supervisors and told them to expect my first draft of those two chapters by the coming wednesday.

As if they needed a warning. 

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And when wednesday came, I regretted so badly that I had sent them that email. 

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That first two chapters took about 2.5 weeks? 

And it was not even the heaviest parts of the entire thesis.

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Anyway, I was really hard pressed for time to write the Results and Discussion chapters..

I stayed up all night a few times, sometimes sleeping at 5, sometimes 9am..

And woke up early, around 1-3pm sometimes, to more comments and feedback for my thesis. 

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It was exhausting and draining to be doing work so many hours, and the ceaseless editing process, omg. 

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I felt frustrated at the amount of comment and feedback because it impeded me from being able to proceed to writing the next few chapters. I sometimes even blamed my supervisors for their OCD.

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I wanna talk about how we coordinate work among the three of us; me, primary supervisor and associate sup. So I would send my first draft to pri sup, then she would send her amended copy with her comments to associate sup, who will send both their comments and the amended copy for me to change things accordingly. 

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Because pri supervisor was so busy, she did not see these changes I sent to them both to vet until much later when associate sup flew back to aussie.

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And when she saw these changes that associate sup suggested, she asked me to change these back to the way I wrote initially. omg. waste my time!

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But at the back of my mind I knew that their comments were invaluable to producing a good piece of work, like mine. lol.

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And at the end of it, when I was looking through the thesis for the last few times, there was no more frustration, just a sense of satisfaction..

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I thickskinnedly thought to myself, ‘Hmm it is really quite well-written.. No wonder both supervisors kept praising me for the good quality of work.’ 

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lol ok I only thought about that once or twice, I think that all supervisors praise their students to boost their morale. Hey this is really important you know..Since most of us feel that our results are..weak, inconclusive..just weak.. 

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Here is Dr. H, who was so generous with encouragement and positive remarks.

I still feel bad for sending her my work late; she had a dozen of other datelines to meet during that same period.

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Hi Sherm! <3 Im going to miss sherm so much! My companion when we both collected data from the same hospital; and my last minute do work comrade.

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Poor Dr. H for getting us both last minute do-ers.

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On friday she was so kind to offer to let us print our thesis in her office.

So sweet! 

Sherm and Dr H asked me how I did the page numbers, because page numbers are always, such an ass to deal with. 

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I was so proud of myself when I answered, “My boyfriend did it for me!”

I really.. don’t understand why page number formatting has to be so difficult.

The section and page breaks screw it up all the time! starting the numbers from 1 in the middle of the thesis. omg lucky i had caleb. <3

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Hey caleb… thanks so much for helping me during this difficult time. :)

Doing page numbers and taking care of my meals. See how fat I’ve grown now, not missing a single meal and sitting in front of the laptop every awake moment.

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And thanks for lending me your laptop for the short period of time between my laptop breaking down AGAIN and buying a new one with me.

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Yes my Lenovo T61 could not be turned on ONE WEEK before thesis submission. This was after it revived from the water splash about 2 weeks before.

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I thought that was the last straw. Fishing Lenovo T61 that has been with me for almost 4 years..I am going to get a new Lenovo laptop!

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But Caleb rolled his eyes and suggested this Toshiba laptop.

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Nice huh.

The best part was that it came with Windows 7 and Microsoft Office 2010.

I <3 Office 2010. My favorite new function is that when you Control+F (find) a word in your document, a list view of all the sentences containing your word appears on left, saving you the trouble of searching through the entire document.

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Anyway.. so glad we all survived thesis writing. :)

Im going to recuperate this few days before starting attachment on monday.. Not enough time to rest!

Hello! Just want to note down my thoughts about this event I went to yesterday.

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Its a dance concert to help raise funds for the unfortunate in Japan.. 

I felt quite touched that people come together within a short period of time and organize such a large scale performance. The commendable part was that it was no slip shod work at some Kopitiam; it was held at an air-conditioned place and it was obvious that the whole concert was well thought-out.. And the most commendable part was that the dance crews which performed were recognizable well-known ones in Singapore. 

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Which means the audience was in luck! 

Its all slipping away now, can’t remember much of last afternoon. 

But here is a summary of what I liked:

- These guys: 

The performance yesterday by them had one less guy and one more girl and the performance was awesome, so entertaining!

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- The performance that had Chun in it, I only remember them wearing red costume… Just like in their logo. lol

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- The bboy group which had the blondie with the long ah beng fringe.. Usually when I watch breakdancing I will be like, ‘oh okay, why do you want to spin on your head anyway?’ or ‘omg i thought he was going to break his neck’. 

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But this group.. this one is GOOOODDDD. Beside awesome floor breaking skillz, they had some Eight-s of dance moves while being upright/with both or one foot on the floor/with head on top too..

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I haven’t found the need, until now, to explain what it means for people to be standing/dancing upright, with feet nearer to the ground than their head. What do you call that anyway? 

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Just look at their logo. Default position is on their hands. lol

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At one point in time, two of the boys had their feet in the air while the other two were (upright) waving their arms to the music. And the boys who were upside down waved their feel in sync with the other two. *squeal like a pig!!!*

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Their name looks like an acronym, but I couldn’t find the full name anywhere on the internet. 

Could it be that it is because the Full name is something vulgar, like FUckYOurself? 

What the…..

But to give them the benefit of the doubt, they probably meant it to be an exclamation, just like Urban dictionary suggests: 

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- Last but not least, the dance performance by the dance crew from:

Bad quality video of it if you wanna watch. 

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So glad they enjoyed it too!

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Din Tai Fung dinner because Chndy <3 XLB so much.. hee

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Anyway I used all those logos and pics because I did not want people to end up here when they search about those dance groups.. 

I mean, I don’t really want cool people to know about my defects.. 

My brother came to talk to me in the morning and when he came close enough, he thought aloud, “So this is what breath smells like..”

I was so hurt. “Do you mean I have bad breath?”

He tried to save himself, “Nono, I mean it is normal breath smell la.. Your breath smells better than my urine.”

omg. what consolation.  

Still slogging out my thesis. Found out from some of my friends that most of them were in the Discussion Section already. 

And where am I? only in the results section! and I have not even done my methods yet. 

Booooooo. 

I am such a lousy interviewer. 

The kid was telling me about how his mom cried with him because the two of them were connected and how they could feel each other’s pain.. So touching huh. 

I followed up with the pointless question of the year: “Did it make you feel better?”